haerae: (Jonghun loopy)
2009-11-11 05:22 pm

RAINY day

 As usual, I'm sitting around in work-study right now. hehe. I get paid tomorrow, thank God. I've been browsing around Yesstyle just now, and I've bookmarked a few more things I want. I've also been thinking about a gift for Gwyn's b-day. December's just around the corner and this time, I'm gonna be ready! xD

It rained all night last night, and I slept BEAUTIFULLY. Except for the last hour. I kept waking up after that for some reason. Ah well. . . 

Yesterday, I was going to talk about how rainy and cold it was, and how it took me forever to get warmed up. How I had to take Olivia to the epicentre to get a prescription filled at CVS (because she caught a cold a few days ago) and how I got lost as I roamed the streets to avoid paying for parking while waiting for her. *inhale* And how much I HATE the one-way  streets because it leads you more astray from the street you're trying to get back on. How I left the place in my flip flops because I really don't care about my feet, and how I got back with an empty tank of gas and only $13 on my card. How I wanted to go to Dairy Queen on such a day instead of getting gas because getting out of the car for gas sounded less appealing than getting out of the car to purchase ice cream. I'm so screwed up. keke. 

Well, I ended up getting the gas AND the ice cream. So I probably have like, $5 on my card right now. But only till tomorrow. Yay! 

I've been craving the Sims, lately. But every time I play it, it crashes on me mid-play. I think it's just a hack interfering. So I'm just going to have to delete the hack. pfft. 

One person in our three-person group missed class today, so the two of us had to do alot of chocolate tempering and re-scaling and jazz. It was a little stressful because we were falling behind, but Chef Gronert had mercy on us. I could tell. I think he's pretty cool. He's funny. Says we should be eating more chocolate daily. He actually questions why we haven't been eating from the chocolate racks all throughout class. He asks us this everyday! I can tell it bothers him. We laugh at him for saying it. 

He also tells us to talk to the chocolate, so it'll work for us better. To love it, yadda yadda. And when we laugh, he frowns and goes, "I'm serious. . ."  He's got a strong German accent, but not as strong as Chef Peemoeller's. He's always complimenting Europe's chocolate and bashing America's. But I can't blame him. And he HATES Hershey's. Since he talks alot anyway, once Hershey's in in the subject, he'll go on and on and on. -____- I fight to stay awake in his class. Same with the previous classes. I even had coffee this morning. Didn't help that much. Don't you hate it when you're still awake, but the minute you exhale, you start swaying? HEY! I THINK THAT MEANS I WAS SLEEPING WITH MY EYES OPEN THEN, RIGHT?! I always wondered what that was like. Well, if that's it, then I've been doing it everyday. I can't wait to go home, so I don't have to worry about waking up super early, and in a soft bed! *__* <--- see that face? That's a longing face right there. Actually, my bed's quite comfy, but I'm too restless at night to enjoy it most of the time. With school on the brain and such. 

I started watching Smallville again online. Started the day before yesterday. Oh, and it was GOOD. I looked at the fansites I used to obsess over, and it was so weird. I have no giddy excitement when I look at it anymore. It's such a good series, but it isn't my favorite thing. Not after kpop took over. It didn't stand a chance. lol 

Oh man, and I looked at Tom Welling, and I felt nothing. And it didn't even bother me. What a shame. I used to be so "in love" with him. It was definitely infatuation. Now I think he's to big and brawny. Not my type. Plus, I barely knew what his personality off camera was, unlike the kpop-stars, so that turned me off. 

Well, anyway, I'm in the middle of season six and there's 9 seasons now! It needs to end! I mean, where else can they take it? Lex Luthor's been out of the picture apparently since season 8 or something, and I thought he was a huge part of the story? I loved Michael Rosenbaum; his acting's the best! >.< I'm gonna watch it all. :D

I've felt unproductive lately, so I'm trying to get rid of some unhealthy habits. First, I've stopped drinking soda since Monday. I'm gonna see how far I go until I allow myself at least one or two sodas a month or something. I can do it. I gotta do something about all the sweets too. I try enough of it in class, and I'm always getting ice cream on random weekdays and weekends. And I'm gonna start picking days to go to the gym. 

I spend too much time on the computer. Way too much time. And I sit in front of it even when I don't know what to do with it. I just need to organize my time better. 

I
t took me this morning to finally figure out why it's been raining so much yesterday. Because of the tropical storm/hurricane! I didn't even ask anyone back home if the weather's atrocious over there! No tornadoes/pulled up roofs/power outages right?! Answer meh! 

I've gotta buy a new hoodie. A heavy-duty one. The two I have aren't cutting it. Not in this cold. haha. :3 

I'm gonna go play sims now. ;D

Peace! 

And be blessed. <3

- Raeven
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2008-06-30 12:51 pm

Dream Log. 1

Okay. I need to remember this dream because it's the most detailed dream I've had. Because I always wake up and forget everything. lol It was, of course bizarre (because that's just how my brain works.) >.> Anywayz.

+ It all started like this : Some random clip of a teen with black hair was standing alone at a wooden dock, stunned and disappointed as the boat she was supposed to be boarding had left without her. It was a small boat and two or three of her assumed close friends were staring back at her with saddened faces. In my dreaming state, I was mad at the friends, because it wasn't like they were on a boat with a whole bunch of people. It was a small boat with only the three of them. They simply could have waited for the black-haired girl to get to the dock. But no, they left her. I was trying to grasp what was going on by watching because I wasn't in the scene. It flashed to the girl's pale face; she was really pretty. Didn't look mean or anything. So I was wondering why her "friends" had left her! Oh well. Anyway, she was so shocked she dropped something. I don't remember what it was, but I don't think it was that important.

+ It was a pretty seen, but it was still a little scary (only because there was alot of water and I don't like the sight of deep bodies of water). It was like I was beginning to stand at that dock, where the water was a serene greenish-clear tint, moving with little ripples and such. Thin fog patched certain parts of the river? and I watched the "friends" let the boat carry them away while still looking sadly at the girl.

+ Scene flash: I'm on a boat now. Don't know how I got there, but my dreams tend to just make me appear in places. It was some kind of private cruise ship. it wasn't anything fancy, but it didn't matter, because apparently, I didn't care in this dream. I was with friends, but I can't even remember who they were. And we were traveling through the same kind of greenish water. Again, the scene was very serene and pretty. All the things I did on the ship was a blur to me. I talked a bit, but I kept to myself most of the time, leaning over the railing to watch the water. I was so high and it was scary, being up so high and above such deep water. Frightening. It seemed my friends were always in a rush. I hadn't realized the ship had reached its destination because I was so spaced out (spaced out about absolutely nothing). Both of the excited girls grabbed my hands and pulled me to the ship's exit, telling me we were here, wherever that was.

So we're in this place now. It resembles the rain forest. There aren't much buildings where we are, but again, I didn't seem to care. We look around a bit, then we get separated because we're all wandering off.

+ Scene flash: Now I'm in a bathroom. It's dimly lit and pretty big. There's two sinks and a huge mirror in front of me. I see myself, yet I can't remember what outfit I'm wearing. >.<''  But I guess it was nice because I wasn't complaining about it. There's a few candles lit and it gives off a soothing scent. I look around and realize I'm on a cruise ship. It isn't the same one I was on before because this one's much nicer. Everything in the bathroom's expensive-looking. I guess there was a balcony or something right outside of the bathroom because there was a door with a blurred window right next to me.

+ Scene flash: I see a pretty korean woman with short black hair standing out on the balcony. I remember she was being restless in the dream, but it could be for no reason. (or maybe she was locked in. Who knows. I can't control my dreams! T.T)

+ Scene flash: In the same bathroom:

Daniel Henney: Raeven, you gotta help me! You see that girl over there, the one on the balcony? I want her to notice me. PLEASE HELP ME! I'm in love with her!


Me: A-alright, Daniel. I guess I'll help you.

I didn't really have a say in this. I just went with it and decided to help him out. (I was a little disappointed that he wasn't in love with ME. The fact that he was super old didn't concern me at the mo. He was hot and he was korean. <3 Anyway,Yoochun was on my number one spot, so I didn't let it bother me much.

Daniel was also in a rush. It was annoying me! Everyone was on the move! And just because! He was rummaging through stuff, magically finding some lemon toothpaste and various flavors of pixie stix. He empties a few of them in his hand while I watch in confusion. Then he squeezes some toothpaste in the pixie stick dust. And THEN he snorts it all up like it's drugs! Don't ask, because I don't know. >.> <.< He holds out my hand next, gives me some pixie stick dust and toothpaste, tells me to do the same. And I do what he says! Am I a slave to my own dreams??!! O.o

I swallow the stuff and it's all dangerously sweet. Apparently, Daniel only did it to fake like he's being sick and spits it out "violently" in the toilet. To attract attention? Why'd he give me some then?? Oh well, maybe he really DOES use it as a drug and wanted to share some with me. I'm so weird.

+ Scene flash: The girl Daniel's attracted to turns her head, alarmed at Daniel's sounds of "distress", but then she loses interest and goes back to the looking out at the view of the endless sea.

+ Scene flash:

Me:
Well, that was a failure. She's not interested in you, Dan. Forget her. She's a meanie.

Daniel Henney:
Nah, I'm gonna win her heart. You watch.

I just shrug.

"You're a really good actor. For a while, I really thought you were sick." I say to him, patting him on the shoulder as he stands.

"I try." he says, then we just sit on the floor and hang out. I don't know what we were talking about, but it was probably about totally random things. He forgets about trying to get the girl and I decide my work here is done, so I get up to leave him.

Somehow, I know I'm locked in the bathroom. (hehe, Daniel's locked me in the bathroom, oh noes!) But I just unlock it, say "peace out" to Daniel and left him.


+ Scene Flash: It seems the ship is still docked, so I leave to go find my friends. As I pass, there are alot of rich peeps. Gold and silver, bold colors, just richness and stuff. I pass a restaurant as I look for the exit.






 
Tom Welling: blah blah b-blah blah blah. . .

Didn't catch what he was talking about, but he was there. And I was like *.* How come you didn't appear in my dreams when I was obsessed with you?!

So, reveling the fact that I was standing beside him now, looking at him while he talked about whatever to the bartender person, I spaced out again:


Tom Welling: Hello sweet thang, how about we bounce outta hear and boogy down on the dance floor.

He didn't really say that, but I WAS daydreaming about him. In my dream. A daydream within a dream. hehe <3


+
Eventually I left because I didn't have time to talk to him I guess. I leave the ship and walk around a little ways outside. I guess this was another scene flash because back on the ship it was night. But now it was a cloudy, calm day. I'm standing at a wooden dock, just like the beginning of the dream with that girl. And I see my own friends leaving me. They're on the cruise ship we were just on, looking sadly at me as the ship idles away. My face probably resembled that of the girl's when her friends left her. But I wasn't mad at them because cruise ships have to leave at a certain time, and if you're late, you're left behind.

I was scared now, because I had no way of getting home. I ran back on the cruise ship Daniel was in and looked around for him, but couldn't find him. I found a friendly enough looking rich woman standing alone in a ballroom and asked her if she could somehow help me. Of course, she wasn't the captain of the ship, so she didn't know what to tell me. But she let me hang around with her, so I did. She had enough money to fly me back home, she said, but I didn't want to go on a plane. Oh well, I had to go on it in order to get home.

My grandpa woke me up about Boogie, my dog. He wanted me to let him out of his kennel, so I had to get up. So I forced my brain back to reality, relieved that I hadn't been left behind. That's another one of my fears; being left behind: missing a flight, watching a cruise ship leaving that I'm supposed to be on, that sort of thing. So I am putting this in the "anxiety dream" category. ^_^

It was a fun dream, but a very random, weird one. Like my many others. I'm happy I dreamt it though, because now I feel some type of connection shared with Daniel Henney. We're like destined druggie buddies I guess. Drugs made of sugar, though. Without lemon-flavored toothpaste (ewwww!!! >.< )

Thank you for taking time to read this. I hope I've entertained you! xD


be blessed. <3