the passionable cafe of rae

Seriously! I knew this was gonna happen. Okay, so my health insurance is crappy. The company whatevs I'm under takes forever to reach on the phone, either because there aren't enough staff to take the phone, or their just a bunch of lazy workers who don't know how to deal with their own costumers. *puff* Yeah, I finally got my route canal done, but it isn't completely fixed. I still need a crown put on it, otherwise, there's no support on the tooth, the root is hallow because its been cleaned out, making the structure of it more fragile, which worries me because I gotta eat carefully and such until it's taken care of.

My previous dentist told me a crown takes two weeks to get made in the lab, then I get it fitted. I ONLY HAVE TWO WEEKS LEFT HERE! I get onto my mom everyday about an appointment, and she's been trying to get me one, but the stoopid insurance can't ever give you a straight answer, so it was only today that my mom got me an appointment. Guess when the appt. is? ? ? August 20th! O.O;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; >| I'm gonna die ugly. I won't have a frikkin tooth. I'm too young for this to be happening to me! I think I have the weakest teeth in the world. I've always had cavities, even when I've cut down on the sweets and such. The dentist is here to haunt me forever!!!!

>.< So yeah, I read on various sites on google about the fastest time you can get a crown on a tooth and all of them say a couple of weeks, so I know I won't be able to get it on time if my appointment's that late. Something ALWAYS has to go wrong when the time starts to run out, doesn't it? Well for me it is.

Hopefully, God can work this out for me. I mean, He always does; I just gotta ask, which I haven't really done, because I tend to try to figure it out myself before bringing it to Him. pfffffft.

So there's still hope. :)


I got up at 7 this morning. xD But I just went to the bathroom and found my place back in bed again, fell back to sleep and didn't get up till 10. Then I made pancakes. Haven't done that in a long time. They were very good. <3 Then I DLed a whole bunch of kpop mvs of various artists while listening to my new Krap tunes. :D I wanted to make a new video. I'm still DLing some more vids, but I have most of the ones I want. The video I want to do won't make sense. It'll just flow with the mood of the song, because I like to listen to good music and watch pretty things. :3 Don't youuuu?

The only time I left the house today was to get the mail and go to Walgreens to get some blank cds. Then it was back to the computer. lol I didn't play any sims today though, sadly. I still haven't fixed my crashing problem yet, but I think I know what I have to do, just haven't done it yet.

Ok, Kebee is the <3best<3 for making a song like Diving from his The Passage album. I've been listening to it nonstop today and last night and I haven't gotten tired of it yet, which means it'll be a definite favorite of mine for yearrrrrrs! Oh, it's such good stuff. It stirs up emotionjunk inside me and makes me want to scream with joy. *sigh* This is what I've been waiting for. And I want more songs that give me this feeling. I predict SHINee will be crankin' out the next jam that I'll love. I'm expecting something delicious from them. I just don't know what it'll be. But I'll wait. ;D

I played around with Photoshop CS2 today and edited today's sim pic. <33 I fooled around with selective color and went overboard. haha



I did not stage this. It happened automatically. When Taejoon (the blue-haired one) was headed out the door from the salon after I changed his hair, the red-head, his friend, gave this shocked reaction. It was so funny! xD Priceless.

The majority of my sim's names are Korean. *hides* But at least the ones that DO have Korean names are because they have it in them, somewhere in the bloodline. The red head even has asian in her, believe it or not. Her dad's black and her mom's asian. Very asian. Her grandpa's sim-Yunho. lol.
Well, until next time! xDD I'm going to Kriss' house tomorrow with Stasha and Gwyn and we're gonna stay the night! xD And I'm gonna make her the strawberry ice cream cake I did for her and Kunhee, but this time I'm doing it at her house because last time I just brought slices; it would've melted if I brought the whole thing. (I think I said this before in an earlier post. Oh well. >.>)

Oh how glad I am to have someone to squee about Sims 2 with. Kriss, this makes me so happy! Thank you for beign addicted to it just as much as I am! xDDDDDDDD

THEN, tomorrow, we're going to Hioki's for a get-together with friends, like the good timez, with Sean and Cassie and Zach and Andrew, and possibly Yujae, and you know, the whole crew. So it should be really fun. Hopefully, someone in my house can spare me a $20. hehe. I love Hioki's. I've only been there once and fell in love. Finally, I get to go back. keke. And I'm gonna order the same thing I had last time, which is pretty generic and predictable: Teriyaki chicken, I believe. Something with chicken and rice. Either way, it was TASTY. <3

Last night Kriss was telling me about these peeps she met on Skype and they currently live in Australia in a sharehouse. She talked to this French guy who started it. The cool thing about a sharehouse is that you get a chance to grow possible lifelong relationships with your fellow tennants and just. . . live together! I'd want to do it if it was with a few people from other countries, like the one she told me about. She even showed me pics of them; they looked like a cute little family!!!!! xDDD Yes, I would love that experience. And I wish I was in that picture. :3

-----Gwyn showed me this Jonghyun/Minho fic thing and it was really cute. Makes me want to read more fics. I should finish reading Gwyn's FT Island oneshot!! Then I can finally leave my superlate comment on it. psssshhh. ------ILUGWYN<3


Ok, seriously, I'm gonna go now. Goodnight! Sleep well!

be blessed. <3

- Raeven

One thing I cannot understand about Dede is the fact that she picks my room out of all rooms to sleep in. First of all, she needs to be at home IN HER OWN BED sleeping. Four or five or maybe even more days out of seven, she's at the grandparent's house playing at a friend's in the neighborhood, then she decides she wants to sleepover, and ALWAYS sleeps in my bed. Look, I just want to be by myself sometimes. When I'm at home, Dede's either calling me to pick her up, Stasha's wanting my attention, or their both wanting me to pick them up. When I'm actually alone, I usually get called to run some errands, then I get home, thinking I have the rest of the day all to myself, when lo-and-behold, Mom brings them over.

Of course, most times I'm fine with it, but when I want to get things done, or when I just don't feel like talking/responding, I don't want to be bothered. Just hear me out! Everyone needs space, including me! If I want the bed to myself, shouldn't I be able to have that happen? It's my bed after all. If there were no free beds in the house, I'd understand, but that's not even the case. If there's a prob with sleeping on the air mattress, then you wouldn't be sleeping over, now would you?

I don't know. I'm calling my mom tomorrow, and I'm gonna tell her I don't want to be going back and forth to pick someone up, especially Dede. I'll take time out to take her somewhere, because I enjoy that. But I don't need to be wasting gas. And it's not like Mom's giving me gas money, so really, if mom can't drive them over, then why do I have to do it? I don't have a job--I don't have money to easily spend on gas. I'm gonna tell her that Dede needs to stay home more often, cuz it's true, and she shouldn't just be able to come over whenever she wants just because she can. >.<;;;

It's just frustrating. I don't like to sleep with other people in the bed; I never get a good night's sleep that way. And for a while, I haven't been getting that. So I'm a little fed up.

But that's alright. I shouldn't complain too much because I may end up regretting it later when I'm away in school, missing family and crap. So I'll shut up.

I feel better now. :3

I'm gonna go to bed now. Be back soon.

be blessed. <3

- Raeven